November 17th, 2016
Well, the baby came a couple of weeks early but healthy as can be. My goal to stream consistently has now taken a turn. I knew I wouldn’t be able to continue as much as I did, but I still want to be able to stream a little bit. My wife has been super supportive and allowing me a couple hours a day but even that seems to be putting too much pressure on her. I get a lot of downtime it seems but on constant watch of a little one that can break into a cry at any point.
I think I may switch over to play some solo games where I don’t stream but my passion is now streaming and playing solo and without viewers just doesn’t give me the thrill as what I have been accustomed to. <baby woke up 40 minutes gone>. Where was I? Ah, yes. I don’t mind playing solo games if I have to, but I love seeing all the people from all over the world come in to chat and play and I just won’t have that when I do play solo.
I just rolled out my website, started up my subscription button and I feel I don’t really get to appreciate any of it right now. I also feel that the people that have subscribed to me are getting short changed since I feel that my streaming is going to be slowed down for the next month or so. This makes things harder for me, but I have to keep my obligations to my new born child and wife first. Its just coming to accept that which is very hard for me when I feel there is something special growing online.
I don’t know if anyone will read this or if this will be my own personal diary online, but it feels good to express how I feel right now. #muchlove.